Wednesday, November 11, 2009

i just had the worse day ever . 111109 was a bad fucking worse day , you know . i just hope he'll read this . i love him so much but i dislikes his attitude someway . can we like settle this matter , please bhy ? D:

i didnt know things will end up like this . i made decisions too early , yeah . how stupid . i felt so sorry . i've hurt him and letting him down . where is the promise ? i know i'm in the wrong . Iqah , i'm so sorry for saying those harsh words . i'm just mad . you know how its like to be mad , kan ? thanks for helping us all along . i know ariff do treasure you so much , even more than me . here i am blogging about my relationship , the 090909 love .

i'll tell you why I ask for a break . okay ?
firstly , i msg him on friday night . he didnt reply me , so i just thought he's alr asleep cause it nearly midnight . and then , i tried and msg him on saturday morning again and again repeatedly . still no response . i tried to call him , i'm getting worried luh ok . He still had some prepaid but i don't know why he didnt answered . mayb busy i guess . so, i wait and wait . then it was sunday , i msg and call and segale mcm lagy uhc . but to no avail . how sad i am i miss him so much , hoping to hear some news . then , one whole day tak reply me . exactly midnight , i wished him happiy second monthsary . yet , no response .

msg him like this ..
i hope you didnt forget today is our second month .
happiy second monthsary to us , dear. Ariffelly akan last .
i can't smile till you reply , ilysm . nytes . );

Something like that uh. I forget. Hmm. Then, the next day tried to call him again. Ini dah lain, ini prepaid dah kosong. So, who has he been msging then? I just let it be. And it cause me to be stress! I ate chocolates and these and that. Wow. My sister advice me to confront him or meet him. Today, I msg him where is he. He didnt reply. Remember tak korang yang I ever promised not to contact Rifqi anymore? Yeahh. Tetapi tadiy, secare terpakse I asked him where is he. Cause he's with Ariff. Then he said, ariff kate jangan sebok. It hurts me alot you know. Seriously, so much.

Dalam bus, so mad, so down, so sad. I msg him this ..
I know you're busy right now but I want you to think about this .. We are not so close nowadays and I really have no idea why .. Ariff , if you dont love me anymore , just tell me straight . I feel like I'm your dog these days to wait for your reply . Eh hello !? Buat org tunggu jek .I still love you like I always do but now its fading away .. Bhy , what have gotten into you till you said that to Rifqi ? You should know what la kan . It hurts me alot , so much seyh . You love doing this ryte ? :(

I showed Affiey the msg. I just didnt know who to talk to. Friends told me to calm down, chill lah aperla. );
I didnt reply Rifqi. I feel like cuddling around my blanket and have my beauty sleep. And then, tadiy I was online and Iqah chatted with me. Rockstar blocked me in msn. How sad was that?
Me : receive the msg ?
Him : Fcuk dont talk to me .
*blocks me*

Prangai block eh you. Baru I nak settlekan this problem. What do you mean by blocking me? Makes you look like a looser. Bhy please be strong. You know our love is strong right? And you had your problem at home. I dont wanna add anything to it. I hate to see you sulk. Once and for all, I had enough. Tu sumerh bukan knape aku mintak break uh, bcoz of his attitude jugaak. Not so caring and stuffs. I dont wanna elaborate more about it, makes me cry and think of the time when we are at the pathway. I will still love you, my monkey. ;(
byebyebye.